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June 13, 2011 / quietlystrange

I can’t stop changing all the time

as per click here then come back here….

To Whom it may Concern:

Things really aren’t working out here. We have noted your concern and your express wishes that things progress acoording to your rules and standards. unfortunately we won’t be able to do that.

There really is just too much that is too different about this situation, she has come through too much to have so much so constantly held against her.

She needs some space and time to regroup and work out who she truly is as a person, to deal with her long-term on going deep-seated issues. And unless you can give her the space and time to do this then please step aside.

She really doesn’t deserve these demands from you as well as everyone else. Surely you of all people can see and understand where her head is at instead of trying to force her into little boxes, maybe just for now, let her roam free in whatever shape she chooses.

I know you can do this. I know that there is the capacity for the removal of construction and scaffolding necessary to finally fix the spreading rot underneath.

I also know that there is the capacity in you to fix this with as much disruption to normal service as is necessary.

Please, just let her be for as long as she needs to be let be.

Please let her speak as often as she needs to and hide when she can’t speak anymore.

Please leave the doors and windows open to let the weak winter light in.

And please accept she is as she is, she won’t change, she will always be this way, she can’t be any other she doesn’t need to get better she needs to learn to work with what she has. Let her love who she loves. Let her fall when she falls, let her break when she breaks, let her fear what she fears and know that always she will clean up after herself eventually.

And remember… she can’t help it.


The Extraordinary Machine.



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  1. Susan Mann / Jun 13 2011 8:43 pm

    I love this piece, it’s very well written. It sounds honest and like someone admitting they don’t want help any more, they just want to be who they are. I hope this happens. x

  2. Five Go Blogging / Jun 13 2011 10:59 pm

    I love the tune and love love love the writting. So simple and tells me that no matter how much changes nothing will change. I like this x

  3. Molly / Jun 14 2011 1:46 am

    Interesting read, intriging but also a message I would love to send to someone in my life.


  4. Josie (@porridgebrain) / Jun 20 2011 2:38 am

    Love love love. Here’s to roaming free, throwing open doors and saying ‘f*ck you’ to boxes we were never going to fit in.

    Here’s to brave, unapologetic, flawed and beautiful living. Very proud of you, my friend x

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